Old songs (1)

Intro: G-D-G-D

(Verse: G-D-G-D)
Do you ever notice me
When I secretly stare at you, baby?
Or when I look into your eyes
Does my eyes reveal what's inside me?

(Refrain: Em-Am-Em-Am)
Don't turn your back on me now
'Coz I just wanna savor
The stolen moments the two of us share
I just want you to know (D)

(Chorus: G-D-G-D)
Guess I'm falling for you baby
Can't find the right words to say
Guess I'm needing you more each day
(Em-Am-Em)
It's all that I know
I want you to know
(D) I need you to know, I love you.

I have never been more sure
And I've never felt this way before
But my heart paints a picture of you
Deep inside I know it's true

Don't turn your back on me please
I can't stand to see you leaving
You know I want you
I'm longing to hold you
And I need you to know (Chorus)

(Bridge: G-D-G-D)
Please help me, it's all that I know
Please hold me, I want you to know
Please save me, I need you to know
Please help me...

(Coda: G-D-G-D)
Guess I'm falling for you
Guess I'm falling for you
Guess I'm falling for you...

(Em-Am-Em-D-G)

I love you.

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This was the first ever song I wrote. I was 15 and in fourth year high school. I was just beginning to learn how to play the guitar, so the chords were simple and the pattern was easy to figure out.

As I remember correctly, this song was for a huge crush who was a co-member of the choir. And mind you, I never got the chance to sing this song to him. I did not even get the opportunity to tell him how I felt (Funny. To think that this song is about telling that person!). Now, I don't know where on earth that guy is anymore. Rumor has it that he had a son/daughter when I went to college (Whew! Disaster averted).

In this blog and in the next two, I will (try to) recall the songs I wrote for various people during those humdrum days. This is to prove one thing: I was lame. So so so lame.

You see, each of our past selves has his or her own form of lameness. I am no exception; I know that I am awesome today but let's face it, this awesome was once lame.

(HAHA, just kidding! That last remark was Barney Stinson-inspired. But he's the awesome one; let's give the man the awesomeness he truly deserves.)

As I was saying, we could admit that in one way or another, we have done stupid mistakes. Or decisions that lacked second thought. Or actions that needed to be refined. All of us have those ugly ghosts, haunting us once in a while to a certain degree. Everyone; no exceptions. Well, maybe except Barney Stinson, the master of awesomeness.

AHHH! Barney get out of my blog!

Dear 15-year old girl who is reading my blog, you reading this blog is not an accident. As I've said once in one of my entries, God does not play dice with the universe; He doesn't play dice with me or my laptop. So He didn't play dice with yours, too.

Maybe you were searching for a poem or a love song. Maybe you were about to dedicate it to a guy you met. Be careful with your heart, my dear. I had my share of mistakes in that part; I thought it was 'love' but look at me now, single and unemployed, but nonetheless just fine.

By this time, these are the things you should be busy with: acads, books, reviewing for college entrance exams, and your extra-curricular activities. Okay, you may goof around with friends too, but make sure they're friends who are marching with you down the line when you graduate. If they are the friends who introduced you to drugs or encouraged you to cut class, then break off with them at this very moment, or else you're gonna have a bad time.

Don't haste to grow up. You know, as much as I want to go back to being fifteen, I cannot. So seize those days and make the most out of them. Carpe diem! Have fun, dear.

And as to that pathetic poem above, don't copy them anymore. I was wrong for thinking all of those blissful feelings were the 'L' word. It's much, much more than that, my dear. Don't haste to say the 'L' word; you've got all the rest of your life to do that. Don't commit the same mistakes I did back then. Be wise. You only live once. Don't screw it up. :)