Took me a while to finally focus.

June 19, 2012. 9:26PM. I'm in the room of a cozy resort in (whatever part of) Batangas. We lodged in here due to our 5-day schedule in a school nearby. I found the place very comfortable; however, I opted not to take advantage of the pool. I figured that if I swim now, I won't be able to enjoy my swimming on friday with Lisieux people. At this very moment, I am multitasking: talking with officemates, texting my high school adviser, planning to call my mom, and blogging. So far, I've been inefficient with... well, everything. So I'm focusing on the blog now.

Or not! Aaaargh I can't focus.

10:19PM. Still, not totally focused on the blog. My roomates are talking about some serious stuff. Ahhh, our topic makes me conclude that life is so unfair. It indeed is...

10:29. I decided to straighten up my activities once and for all. I had my final text messages, I called my mom, and now there is nothing left to do but to blog. Oh, the inefficiencies of multitasking that were verified by a recent scientific study. Add to that study this very moment.

I've been away from my blog site for almost a month. My last blog entry was written back when I was looking for a job. Now I found one; however, it's good only until August. So after my two-month contract, I shall swim again in the vast ocean of unemployed hopefuls.

My job is to conduct a kind of reading test for elementary and high school students. The compensation is not a bucketload of money (that's okay for a starter, they say). It won't make me rich. However, what thrills me in this endeavor is the opportunity to travel to a lot of places and work in an academic environment. Sure enough, if not for this job, I won't be in Batangas right now.

Getting this job meant cancelling my other applications. It also meant missing that DREAM JOB in one of my DREAM INSTITUTIONS (which, at the time, was looking for applicants!). I said yes to this project; consequently, I said no to the numerous opportunities that followed. Don't get me wrong though: I am not headhunted by companies. I neither graduated with honors nor with any medals, even the ones for the volunteers. I was at fault for them calling me all at the same time - I went on an after-grad-you-get-a-job-immediately craze and yeah, God knows how many companies I did apply myself in. The perfect term is aligaga. Na-aligaga ako nang nagsimula silang magsitawag.

But somehow, I know that God put me here for a reason. My working here even for a short time is not an accident, just as any other happenings in my life. There has to be a purpose. I may have to meet someone here (and I sure did; all my workmates now are new to me. Add to that the teachers I meet in the schools we visit). Or maybe, I need to learn something. Or someone needs to learn from me. I will not think of it that much as I did. Back then, I wasted a lot of effort deciphering God's reasons. Now, He just tells me that the reason is out there; it's actually none of my business. All I have to do is follow His will, do good and avoid evil (easier said than done), and the rest is up to Him.

11:03PM. Good night!

"Everything that happens in this world happens at the time God chooses." Ecclesiastes 3:1-11