I could still remember my first night in the dormitory. It was a Saturday night. Men's Dorm seemed to "introduce" itself to me and my roommate when both the power and water supply went out. Imagine how freaky it felt. Take note, it was our very first night away from home. I couldn't describe the homesickness I felt that time. I even covered with a blanket my entire body as I slept, for fear of something unseen that might touch my feet. It was as if if I could grab my slippers and head straight home that night, I would.
But for the five years that followed, I could truly say that LB has been kind to me in strange ways. The thought of LB being my comfort zone had never crossed my mind, until it happened.
Now, all the hardships of college life has just ended. Ah, graduation. The feeling is so blissful and happy. However, despite the happiness I feel for finishing such an endeavor as getting that Bachelor's Degree, there lies an (inevitable, I guess) sadness wrapping my heart. My student days are over. I am no longer the learner. Now I must go out and apply all the learnings the university has taught me. The friends, the family, the environment of LB... all of them are hard to leave.
But of course, I need to go. This chapter of my life has to be closed, or at least left for a while. As much as I wanted to stay, I also know that I have to untangle myself from this attachment that the comfortable life in LB has caused me. And with this, I am starting to think that maybe, just maybe, God's plans for me are better. Even if it hurts to cut the lovely, bittersweet cords I have with my beloved LB, I have to do it. I have to jeer away from all attachments so as to discern more of His will for my life. I have to follow my Lord, even if it means sacrificing the things my heart wants.
If I keep plunged into my attachments, I may not grow. If I keep myself busy in my comfort zone, I might miss His call. If I stay where I am, I may not know where He truly wants me to be.
Following God's call for my life, I might feel a little depressed at first. This is because most of His plans are different... way waaaaay different than mine. But such has always been the trend: I would plan, figure out that He has a different plan, and then find out that the latter's plan turned out to be a better one. And so I have to have Him in charge of my life, including my career.
"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord, " Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" (Jeremiah 29:11).
Boss, Ikaw na po ang bahala. ;)
Now, all the hardships of college life has just ended. Ah, graduation. The feeling is so blissful and happy. However, despite the happiness I feel for finishing such an endeavor as getting that Bachelor's Degree, there lies an (inevitable, I guess) sadness wrapping my heart. My student days are over. I am no longer the learner. Now I must go out and apply all the learnings the university has taught me. The friends, the family, the environment of LB... all of them are hard to leave.
But of course, I need to go. This chapter of my life has to be closed, or at least left for a while. As much as I wanted to stay, I also know that I have to untangle myself from this attachment that the comfortable life in LB has caused me. And with this, I am starting to think that maybe, just maybe, God's plans for me are better. Even if it hurts to cut the lovely, bittersweet cords I have with my beloved LB, I have to do it. I have to jeer away from all attachments so as to discern more of His will for my life. I have to follow my Lord, even if it means sacrificing the things my heart wants.
If I keep plunged into my attachments, I may not grow. If I keep myself busy in my comfort zone, I might miss His call. If I stay where I am, I may not know where He truly wants me to be.
Following God's call for my life, I might feel a little depressed at first. This is because most of His plans are different... way waaaaay different than mine. But such has always been the trend: I would plan, figure out that He has a different plan, and then find out that the latter's plan turned out to be a better one. And so I have to have Him in charge of my life, including my career.
"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord, " Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" (Jeremiah 29:11).
Boss, Ikaw na po ang bahala. ;)
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