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I should write a blog about something wonderful that happened to me last night. I just encountered another miracle from the Maker of all miracles.
I have been telling people how I struggle to pass the quizzes and exercises in STAT1. I admit I really am confused with all the lessons. Math is my weakness and it shows in the results of my quizzes in the course.
I often endure sleepless nights to catch up with the discussions. I review my notes during my break. There were times when I would stay up all night to answer the exercises in advance, because I know I would be struggling again in the lab. But then, It seemed that all my efforts were wasted when Ma'am Krizzy would give a quiz and I would find myself still puzzled on how to solve the problem sets. The thought that I stayed up all night for just another failed quiz saddened me.
If the results of my exercises and quizzes are to be computed right now, I know and I am sure I would get a failing standing. This is in spite of all the efforts I exert.
So there. Last night, I was alone in my room in the dormitory. I thought of all my struggles and the pain they inflict me. I broke down. I cried so hard I couldn't stand the frustration. I texted some friends and they said they would pray for me at that moment. I was talking loudly to the Lord. Why are all my efforts wasted? Why can't I understand the concepts? Why do I have to take this course? Why have You brought me into this when You know I can't get through it? Those were the why's I kept on asking Him. I felt miserable. I was tempted to think that I was all alone in the journey.
Then my eyes moved toward the shelf... a Bible. I lifted my hands and found myself opening it. I was searching for answers. And I know He gave it to me at that very moment.
The pages turned to Sirach 2:2-6. I understood what He wanted to tell me. I cried again, not with bitter tears, but with tears of joy - joy that I found after He appeased me.
Sirach 2:2-6
My son, when you come to serve the LORD, prepare yourself for trials.
Be sincere of heart and steadfast, undisturbed in time of adversity.
Cling to him, forsake him not; thus will your future be great.
Accept whatever befalls you, in crushing misfortune be patient;
For in fire gold is tested, and worthy men in the crucible of humiliation. Trust God and he will help you; make straight your ways and hope in him.
I SUPER cried while reading the passage. I suddenly realized why I became miserable. I failed to trust Him. I relied on my own. I thought it was my battle alone. I didn't realize that I can't make it if I don't turn to Him.
So there. I found new hope. It is not too late! I will do my best and I will lift up everything to Him. The Lord is now my teammate! And with Him as my Shepherd, I will never wander. ü
Thanks be to God! ♥
I have been telling people how I struggle to pass the quizzes and exercises in STAT1. I admit I really am confused with all the lessons. Math is my weakness and it shows in the results of my quizzes in the course.
I often endure sleepless nights to catch up with the discussions. I review my notes during my break. There were times when I would stay up all night to answer the exercises in advance, because I know I would be struggling again in the lab. But then, It seemed that all my efforts were wasted when Ma'am Krizzy would give a quiz and I would find myself still puzzled on how to solve the problem sets. The thought that I stayed up all night for just another failed quiz saddened me.
If the results of my exercises and quizzes are to be computed right now, I know and I am sure I would get a failing standing. This is in spite of all the efforts I exert.
So there. Last night, I was alone in my room in the dormitory. I thought of all my struggles and the pain they inflict me. I broke down. I cried so hard I couldn't stand the frustration. I texted some friends and they said they would pray for me at that moment. I was talking loudly to the Lord. Why are all my efforts wasted? Why can't I understand the concepts? Why do I have to take this course? Why have You brought me into this when You know I can't get through it? Those were the why's I kept on asking Him. I felt miserable. I was tempted to think that I was all alone in the journey.
Then my eyes moved toward the shelf... a Bible. I lifted my hands and found myself opening it. I was searching for answers. And I know He gave it to me at that very moment.
The pages turned to Sirach 2:2-6. I understood what He wanted to tell me. I cried again, not with bitter tears, but with tears of joy - joy that I found after He appeased me.
Sirach 2:2-6
My son, when you come to serve the LORD, prepare yourself for trials.
Be sincere of heart and steadfast, undisturbed in time of adversity.
Cling to him, forsake him not; thus will your future be great.
Accept whatever befalls you, in crushing misfortune be patient;
For in fire gold is tested, and worthy men in the crucible of humiliation. Trust God and he will help you; make straight your ways and hope in him.
I SUPER cried while reading the passage. I suddenly realized why I became miserable. I failed to trust Him. I relied on my own. I thought it was my battle alone. I didn't realize that I can't make it if I don't turn to Him.
So there. I found new hope. It is not too late! I will do my best and I will lift up everything to Him. The Lord is now my teammate! And with Him as my Shepherd, I will never wander. ü
Thanks be to God! ♥
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