I will miss you, Yellow Umbrella.

HIMYM fans will relate. Warning: Major spoilers ahead. (*salute* MAJOR spoilers)

[This is neither a HIMYM finale review nor a critique of the entire show. This is just a hodge podge of my reactions and a sort-of farewell post to the second American series I ever loved (the first was The Big Bang Theory)].

It's been four days since I watched How I Met Your Mother season finale. I am writing this blog because (a) yes, I am that huge of a fan, and (b) I want to finally bury this to the grave. Quite frankly, that ending can be pretty hard to take.

I've been eagerly anticipating the finale since March. I already predicted that I would cry when I watch it, and in fact, I did -- multiple times, for that matter. HIMYM never fails to bring the "feels" out of me. Right to the very end.

But never have I been so so SOOOO disappointed in an ending of a TV series as much as I am with HIMYM. Everything that I didn't want to happen, well, happened.

I didn't want Tracy to die. I thought the writers were just messing with our heads with that heartbreaking scene in Time Travelers. And to think that she died off-cam, with barely an explanation how... makes me feel cheated on. I fell in love with Tracy in the last season. She is quite the charmer. She is the girl to die for. She is worth the wait! I lament over what happened to her, because it seems to me that her demise is not given enough justice. It's very crappy of HIMYM.

I also did not want Ted and Robin to end up. For pete's sake! I know that Robin is Ted's one great love, and Ted is Robin's (though I'm not so sure), but isn't this what usually happens in real life -- we don't usually end up with our one great love? Because ending up with them would be too good to be true. And usually, someone far more deserving than our one great love will come our way, and we shall realize they are worth the wait.

So I am not a fan of Ted-Robin. I am rooting for Barney-Robin. I saw how both of them grew in each other's company, especially Barney. Robin actually changed Barney. This is a very powerful kind of love -- the one that could cause someone's change of heart. And then HIMYM ruined it for me by having them divorced (BTW, divorce is against my moral convictions) in -- get this -- first fifteen minutes of the episode. Are you kidding me? One entire reason revolved around their wedding, only to get divorced 15 minutes into the finale? Are you kidding me?! And seriously, are you kidding me?!

I got tired of Ted-Robin because Ted kept re-returning; most of his efforts (no matter how romantic) seemed futile to me. At the back of my mind, I always knew they are not gonna end up together; in fact, isn't it the basic premise of the show? No matter how hard Ted has been hung up on Robin, the universe will conspire to get him his perfect girl... And this girl shall be the perfect one for him. But no, they just. could. not. get. over. Robin.

I have no violent reactions about Marshall and Lily; for once, they left a couple with a happy ending. But what happened to everyone else is a mess. I was both happy and sad for Barney because, while he finally found the love of his life, he had totally no affections for the girl he got pregnant (aptly aliased as Number 31). I cannot for the life of me imagine how that kind of set-up would work. The child will grow to a family where his dad and mom have a glaring animosity? If that's the case, then I pity her.

This ending is far from what I hoped for, but nonetheless, I do not regret watching HIMYM, because its good moments tremendously outnumber the crappy ones. I will always remember the slap bet, the pineapple incident (we never found out what happened), Barney's different kinds of high five, the Intervention banner, Ted's romantic gestures... to mention a few.

Most of all, I will miss the gang, and this feeling that they are my close friends too. I shall miss all the lessons I learned from the show. I will miss their failures, especially of Ted -- he's the one I can relate to very much. I will definitely miss waiting eagerly for every episode and patiently downloading it. HIMYM leaves a hole in my heart that no show can ever possibly fill (drama, no? meheheheh).

I will miss you, Yellow Umbrella. And I prefer you over the Blue French Horn, forever and ever.