Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani?

If what you said is true, that you will never leave me in my time of tribulation, then where are you at this moment when I need you the most? You assured me that you will never forsake me, but in these lowest points of my life, I long for your presence but I find you nowhere. I continually hold on to your promise that we will face this together, but so far, I feel like it has been just me all along. Where are you? I cannot feel you. Where are you when I need you the most?