Whatacomplexworld.

Complexities. Ah, I've been bombarded with complex thoughts since I chose this jungle-like academe and stayed here for four years and more, because I seemed to have lost in the jungle's confusing maze. Yes, yes, everything is so confusing here: the ideolologies contradict each other; the people you aren't sure if their faces are true, even their genders. Sometimes I wished I were just a cat or something else, because as a complete and normal human being the complex ideas dig my head like hell and I think I just want to jump off a cliff. Or maybe it is me? I think of complex thoughts when things could otherwise be less complicated had I chosen not to think of every thing my mind can conceive given this, and that, and had I not thought of every pro and con and intervening variables of everything I encounter. Oh yeah, I know it seems a good thing to be critical but if people overdo it, it would be chaotic for our minds and for the society in general because our tendency would be to weigh everything even when weighing is not necessary for the situation at all. We all look for proofs of existence of many, many things that we cannot explain at the moment, like ghosts, and aliens, and gods or savior and things that are unseen and unperceived by our five oh so limiting senses. If we haven't seen the proof yet then what do we do? We look for everywhere in the world for the proof and everything seems to rotate into the term 'proof',' because if it has no proof then it doesn't exist. Isn't it complex enough, how people think this way? What do we do to the proof when it shows up? If it does not show up then does it mean that that something we believe in is not true at all? I do not want to think of it that way. So if this world is this complex then I will just accept it as it is. Someday I believe that everything will be explained to me, by my mom or dad or angel or something else that is unseen whether you believe it or not. For now let us just accept that the world is such as complex and unending dilemma of what to do with your existence, that is if you believe you truly exist.

(the most confusing blog I have ever written, and I intended it)