Don't give up on me.

Yes, I will do my best to finish this blog even if:

a.) it's 12:30 in the morning;

b.) I am dead tired;

c.) a jukebox song is playing over and over on my background; and

d.) I know in my conscience that I need to sleep early.

But I do miss this activity of blogging. It seems to me that I am incomplete if I do not blog for a long time. Blogging gives me a time to pause, reflect and plan the next things I will do. Yes, it helps me pray too.

My issue right now is this: why do I feel so lost right now? I know I found a place in this world already. I am a GRADUATING student (re-emphasize graduating). I am working on my thesis right now. I have a part-time job. I will sing for a concert on Feb. I am part of the production committee of that concert. I am a daughter, a sister, a friend, a housemate, a batchmate. Why the avalanche of commitments? Can I just disappear now?

But I know I should not falter. Somehow, deep in my heart I know that God has destined me to be busy right now. I think He wants to shake off all the comforts I felt last semester. It is like, it's time to act now, Mich!!!

I have a habit of looking for God in the minutest of things. With all these hassles going on in my fully-booked schedule, how do I do that? I guess I will have to open my eyes wider. Ha ha.

Help me, Lord. The rope I am holding on to might snap. I might trip and fall. I might wander far from You again. Please don't leave me alone. Don't give up on me yet.